Tuesday, 4 February 1862
Paradise weather all day. Sent letters to Ellen N. & C.F.
Paradise without, for I cannot move.
Began to work on Corfu D ― the little one: ― but worked ill. Fear of noise ― (which presently came in 4 Artillery men carrying up wood ―) & disgust at repetition of subject made me work badly ― & besides, I was unwell.
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At 2. Lunched. At 3 ― most weary & sad ― yet, with a persistence I had not in old times ― I shall try to work again. O! these 4 Ascension pictures!
Worked on till 5.
Internally, a very wretched day, but outwardly calm & purple=bright Paradise.
Dined at 7.
& penned out till 10. Lapsista drawings.
The Lord be thanked ― the Maudes are out ― so stillness rains above & below.
But it is hard prison=work: albeit there is much to be thankful for indeed.
(After writing this, read over journal of this day & other following days of 1861: & surely ought to be content!)
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[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]
Poor Edward is having problems with “the Demon” today .